He never lets go.

I feel like the past week has gotten busier than it has been for awhile. I am doing reception, helping with hospitality, trying to still make time for my friends, keep in touch with friends and family from home. I have laundry and a house to keep clean. It feels like so much.

But what i never seem to do is stop. I just need to stop every once in awhile to allow God to fill me up. I feel like crap, but he is still there. He is there waiting for me when i run out of time in my day to be with Him. He is there waiting and he will never let go.

This morning we had community worship and we sang a song that goes:
"Oh no you never let go, through the calm and through the storm. Oh no you never let go, every high and every low. Oh no you never let go, Lord you never let go of me."

It got me thinking. Do i really believe this? I had to let the words soak in and i realized that I didn't fully believe that.

As I look back on my life I see that God was there through everything. He was there when my parents got a divorce, when both my parents remarried, when i tried to take my life and i was in ICU. He was there as i chose to follow Him. He is there through hard times and easy time. As i am in a storm or if its clear. He is there rejoicing and crying with me. He held my hand through it and i can fully believe that he never lets go. He will never let go of us. Not now and not ever.

Do you believe that He never lets go?

waiting

I am waiting. I feel like i have been waiting for a couple months now. I am waiting for my next step. For God to give me a glimpse of the bigger picture.

The thing about waiting is that i always get impatient. I want to take my life into my own hands. I have done that too many times before.

It is hard to be able to just wait. To let God do his thing in our lives. But He does do his thing.

That is what i seem to forget in the waiting period is that God is still working on me. I know that as i have been waiting, God has given me the ability to focus on what I'm doing at this moment in time. To be able to focus and be all i can in this season without worrying what i will do after.

That is the thing about God, He doesn't give us the whole picture, but a little bit at a time so that we can focus on one thing at a time, one thing that he is doing in us at one time.

HE is amazing. He cares for us enough to give us time to wait.

Time to look back on our lives and see how He has been working and how He was there the whole time. Waiting or not He was there and will be there.