I feel like the past week has gotten busier than it has been for awhile. I am doing reception, helping with hospitality, trying to still make time for my friends, keep in touch with friends and family from home. I have laundry and a house to keep clean. It feels like so much.
But what i never seem to do is stop. I just need to stop every once in awhile to allow God to fill me up. I feel like crap, but he is still there. He is there waiting for me when i run out of time in my day to be with Him. He is there waiting and he will never let go.
This morning we had community worship and we sang a song that goes:
"Oh no you never let go, through the calm and through the storm. Oh no you never let go, every high and every low. Oh no you never let go, Lord you never let go of me."
It got me thinking. Do i really believe this? I had to let the words soak in and i realized that I didn't fully believe that.
As I look back on my life I see that God was there through everything. He was there when my parents got a divorce, when both my parents remarried, when i tried to take my life and i was in ICU. He was there as i chose to follow Him. He is there through hard times and easy time. As i am in a storm or if its clear. He is there rejoicing and crying with me. He held my hand through it and i can fully believe that he never lets go. He will never let go of us. Not now and not ever.
Do you believe that He never lets go?
thank you. this is beautiful.
ReplyDeletein my own life, i find that i doubt the lords capability at times. i doubt the lords consistency in my life, because MY heart isn't consistent. but it is so wonderful that he meets us WHERE WE ARE. when life is crazy, he is there. when our hearts are dry, he is there. when we are broken, he is there. when we are weary or stressed, he is THERE! our God cares about us so much! his love is UNFAILING, CONSTANT, and NEVER ENDING! how wonderful! :)
i'm always praying for you sweet girl. for peace, and for trust in the lord. i understand those things are not always easy, but i know you are resting in his hands! ellesse has a note on her prayer wall that says, "BLOOM where you are PLANTED" i love that. no matter where you are, what happens, or what doesn't happen- bloom. be beautiful. be faithful. follow God, and be the best you can be IN HIM, wherever he has planted you! i know you are doing that :)
i've been reading through psalms 37 (my favorite psalm) and verse 3 (NASB) says, 'Trust in the LORD and do good; Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.' be faithful where you are.
i love you so much beautiful Janine!
[insert, total-domination tackle-hug, here]